My life isn’t just a mess. It’s a really big mess. I don’t know why i feel sad eventhough i have all that i want. Living my life is like riding in a giant rollercoaster with no harness. My world turns upside down sometimes. Then after few dramas, I am at the plain ground again. The succesive events turns me into an excitement junkie. I fantasize the end too much. I think too much. Overestimating myself and then boom, i created a big mess. Again. Sigh. I don’t know if this is a blessing or a curse.